"I would like to... just once more... to have the feeling we had again... to forget everything that has happened for a little while...
to remember what it was like
even though I know i'd be deceiving myself...
there are times when I just want to forget for a little while"

...why do my tears flow again?
is it because... after that... we will never have what we had before ever again?
i know that things between us will never be the same again. irreversible change does exist. even if we did get together again, later on... things would be different. for better, hopefully. but the path is long.
...close friends that will never forget each other over the flow of time. ...i have had no such friends before. change always happened; either they, or myself, so that our paths parted in different directions. i wonder if it is at all possible.
not enough time... no ability to build any common ground... that has always been the problem. a fatal one to all my relationships so far. why is it always like that? ...am i really alone, without my one and only?
but it makes no difference. i will remember him as he will remember me. the gift he will give me will always remain in my memory. i will remember him with that; if it is the last memory that we share together, then it will be a good one.
...if only it were my final memory. i don't want to go on anymore.